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My Odyssey...

This being my very first experience with anabolics, I decided to chronicle the entire experience from start to finish, mostly because I wish something similar would have been available for me when I started this journey. I am a recovered heroin addict, and fitness and weightlifting in particular were critical in pulling myself out of the gutter and living a meaningful, joyful life. I was the guy sleeping behind the dumpster with a needle in his arm, and the desperation and loneliness of that life was all I knew for the better part of a decade. The camaraderie and focus of weightlifting, and the reward system of losing myself in the gym (or on the mountain; rock climbing does the same thing for me) and feeling better afterwards... that’s part of what helped me turn my life around. Now I live a beautiful life with people that I love deeply.

 

My anabolic journey began with a lot of research and study. Wikipedia, Google, and forums like this one became my best friends. I spent hours and hours just reading… Weighing different opinions, anecdotal evidence, medical journals and peer-reviewed studies. I even had an opportunity to have a sit-down with a former nutritionist for the US Olympic team, during which she berated steroid use and protein supplementation.

 

All of my learning and study brought me to a point where I was ready to formulate an appropriate diet. There is so much information out there about dieting; whether it be for mass gains, lean mass gains, dirty gainz, weight-loss, ketosis, “clean“ eating, cleanses, raw foods, paleo, and every variation and combination of these that someone could dream up.

 

I like to approach dieting simply, so I chose the following parameters for my diet:

 

Calorie surplus of 300 calories daily220g of protein dailyEat every two hours

 

These parameters are all intended to keep my body in an anabolic state. I have been lifting and tracking my macronutrients and calories for a long time, so this part was actually pretty easy for me. There is an incredible app out there called MyFitnessPal, and I highly recommend it. There are a lot of mind-blowing features, so maybe check out a YouTube tutorial... to me it’s super helpful.

 

I supplement with creatine, Omega-3s, caffeine, BCAAs, glutamine, and a pre-workout.

 

I’ll kind of be going over my lifting routine throughout this thread, but I allow 72 hours of rest between muscle groups. Hypertrophic resistance training 6 days/week. I do cardio/HIIT training every day.

 

So with my diet and exercise plans in place, it was time for me to decide on a cycle. I had pretty much settled on what I wanted my first cycle to look like, and reading Dolf’s topic on “first six cycles for beginners” totally solidified my decision. If you are new to AAS, READ THAT DISCUSSION. LET GO IF YOUR EGO, and take suggestions from these guys who have been doing this for decades. With that attitude, I settled on doing a 12-week Test-only cycle. I learned more about aromatase inhibition(avoiding gynecomastia) and post-cycle therapy (PCT). I did what these veterans said and also came up with a PCT regimen BEFORE I jumped into a cycle. A simple 40/40/20/20 Nolvadex cycle.

 

So it was time for me to find a source. Back to the books. Some things I learned: don’t put it out there in the forums that you’re looking for a source. You will be taken advantage of. Gain a functional knowledge of cryptocurrencies and how that whole system/economy works. Learn about the different anabolics, SERMS, supplements, etc. Learn about suppliers; does it matter if they are foreign or domestic? What is their privacy policy? What is their reputation? Post what you are learning on this and other forums. In doing so, you will start to build relationships with others. Once YOU have done the footwork for yourself, now you can ask people on here for some guidance.

 

I finally settled on XXXXXX XXXXX Labs for my Testosterone Cypionate, arimidex, and Nolvadex. I simply ordered my pins and syringes from a big-box online retailer. The purchasing process for this can be tricky, but with everything I had learned and read, I was prepared to jump through the hoops. The ordering process was separate from the paying process, and for security purposes, there is no tracking number. BUT the guys and gals at XXXXXX XXXXX are phenomenal. Every email was responded to quickly. They said that my order would ship from a domestic distribution center within two days. After 72 hours of not hearing anything, I got nervous and sent them an email. I got a quick response that he would make sure my package was the next one out the door, and I got a shipping notification less than an hour later!

 

So that’s where we stand as of right now. I’m stocking the fridge, getting plenty of sleep, and waiting like it’s Christmas Eve.

 

 

Thanks for joining me on this journey!***

 

 

***Everything in this post, in previous posts, and in future posts is entirely fictional. I am simply making up a narrative to try to fit in with the cool crowd on the internet. I do not engage in illegal trade or the use of banned substances. Any photos or anecdotes contrary to this statement are illustrative only and for entertainment purposes.***

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Outstanding! +3 All day long.

Outstanding! +3 All day long. Thanks for sharing your journey so far.

Take me down the rabbit hole WP.....

 

 

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Man, that chick has grown up

Man, that chick has grown up niiiice since the Grinch movie...

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Hasn't she though?! And it

Hasn't she though?! And it looks dang good on her... her vocals remind me of Joan in her younger days. 

 

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First, I like your writing style. I look forward to more chapters; the intro was fantastic. I am curious what your daily caloric intake is and what are carbs and fat come out too?

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Same

I was thinking the same thing.  Break it down for us kind sir :) Also, what are your current stats?

Other than that man, I'm excited for ya!  Go kick some ass

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Wow

Very inspiring and I am intriguing to follow you in your journey I know it's been a hard one for you I know how addiction can take over your life especially that one I don't know about that type of addiction that you had that I know one of similar I had cancer and was taking the pain pills so I do know what it can be like to have that monkey on your back there for decades and he will still reappear when your at you're at your best. I am curious too know your progress and hope you dont faulter because of having those pins at your disposal can be used for not just steroids and could trigger a relapse.   Your report in your expertise researching everything has been excellent understanding you as a person and not just an addict is hopeful and inspiring to know how your cycle turns out and I have gone on a lot of them myself and bad things such as drugs myself because we all think we're invincible which were not infection and other things that I've dealt with over the years has been taken for granted by myself just be careful and read all that you can it looks like you're on the right road though keep the  good work and stay strong and loose all those hard gains that you've worked so hard for.

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Wow

Hey Mcclovin I never had a chance to thank you for this kind-hearted post. I’m sure your journey has had some very dark turns. I’m here for you, man.

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You've got a good head on you

You've got a good head on you're shoulders, a good plan and good friends.  You've got all you need brother

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Stats

Hey thanks for asking guys... I’ve been meaning to post my stats for a while. So this is what I’m working with:

STATS:

165 lbs.

34 years old

5 feet, 7.5 inches

Body fat %: ???

 

MACROS:

C: 337 - 374

F: 83-92

P: 225 - 250

Kcal: 3000 - 3300

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Body fat %

So I’m not sure about my bf %. Do those little electronic doohickeys work? The ones where you hold the thinger in front of you with both hands and it calculates your body fat? Here’s a photo... if you were to throw out an estimate, what would you say? I know different people carry fat differently, but it’ll be fun... everyone guess, and Ill get my body fat checked. Whoever’s closest wins!

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Aw man...

it didn’t let me paste a photo!

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to post A photo, you go down

to post A photo, you go down to text format and select filtered. Then you go back to the tool bar above the text box and click the little pic of the tree. Then follow the prompts, there’s either a save, share or next bubble at the bottom of each screen. Sometimes you have to play with it a little bit (get your mind out of the gutter): don’t post it in the open forum though: go to the home page and select add, theN pic, then member photo. Youll get a karma point for it too. You can get one every five days for pics. Mess around with it and if you can’t get it, we will work on it after a wake up a little bit...hope that helps

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Roger that...

Thanks for the info Daniel.

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+2  well done as always punk.

+2  well done as always punk. 

Semper Fi: I have a request for you....give us a solid work out playlist! Mine are about all worn out anyway and I need a new one and dude I love your music choices.  Heck from that standpoint - if anyone else has a favorite play list send it to me please. I need some variety.

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What kinda music? All blast

What kinda music? All blast and I can give you is metal metal metal

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Video of Mastodon - Toe to

Heavy but not too heavy check out Mastodon and Clutch  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0weBagBHlk0
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Yeah baby.

Loved that vid.

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Love studio recording vids.

Love studio recording vids. Like their style! Oblivion is part of my playlist.

 

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Okay here goes...

Let’s see if I can get this damn photo thing to work... so i uploaded It as a member photo: now I do the tree icon?

 

 

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Holy shit...

Holy shit it worked! Thanks so much for the info. So what would you guys ballpark for bf %? I’ll find a way to actually determine it and add it to my stats when I can.

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I would say high teens. It’s

I would say high teens. It’s hard to tell accurately in mirror pics. SF is probably the best at it. 

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I think you’re probably right on-

My guess would be around 17% (just based on the past, when I have been able to calculate my body composition and comparing that with how I feel now). I’ve checked out your profile and mad respect, Daniel. I really admire where you’re at, considering what you’ve been through and where you’re at.

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i have the luxury of being

i have the luxury of being retired and able to spend two hours at the gym everyday. Maybe three if there’s a lot of tail running around. But thank you very much brother. Hit me up anytime if there’s anything I can help you with..

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Its members like you JD that

Its members like you JD that make this a place where we can be ourselves and find the leadership we need. Its great to have you around again....and when life gets in the way don't forget we will be here. ;)

 

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JD is the pimp shit imho,

JD is the pimp shit imho, been thru hell yet comes back every time better than before, keeps it real, and has a good sense of humor. 

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14-16%... based on the

Pure guess because of only one angle... 14-16%... based on the beginning of ab definition. Replied to your pic as well.

I would have a better guess if you did it first thing in the morning and I had several angles. 

BTW- the handheld body fat machines are pure crap. Don't waste time or money. Calipers are better and/or find a gym that has a body comp. machine. The body comp machine ain't that accurate but if you use it as your baseline and continue using it for your monitoring you will see if your are progressing in the direction you want to go. The mirror work great for that also. The important thing is to use the same method consistently so you don't get thrown off by a different reading from another method. When you get down and are really interested you could splurge and use a BodPod. That will nail it down with a high degree of accuracy... Oh... Throw the scale away.... Use the mirror. ;)

Here is the Navy Calculator you can do with a measuring tape -

http://fitness.bizcalcs.com/Calculator.asp?Calc=Body-Fat-Navy

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As always...

This is exactly the kind of information I was looking for regarding the handheld body composition things. I will definitely use the tape-measure method. As always, deeply grateful to you, SemperFi.

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Iron Sharpens Iron. You are

Iron Sharpens Iron. You are welcome to my help anytime and I know I will get the same from you.

 

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Delivery day!!!

Gear day

Received my gear today! Feels strange. All the planning, studying, learning, and training have led to this and it’s kind of surreal. 

I‘lol be real with you guys... throughout this whole process I have felt nothing but excitement as I’ve been moving forward. No doubts, no fears. But today, as I’m holding the vials in my hand and placing everything in order to begin, I feel a twinge if anxiety. Thoughts that never held any weight for me are starting to cross my mind. “What about Gyno... you wanna end up with bitch-tits?” Or “Are you ready for your nuts to shrink to the size of a couple little cashews?” It feels like jumping out of an airplane... here we go!

 

Side note: I have not been able to upload photos (I get an error message). The picture was within the required parameters and I followed the same procedure I have in the past. ???

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I know EXACTLY they way you

I know EXACTLY they way you feel. I remember my very first 'real' cycle like it was yesterday. Welcome to the dark side. Sit on it a few days and think this cycle through thoroughly. Make sure you have everything in order and you have your mind in the right place.

What are you willing to do to be the best 'you' you can be? If your answer doesn't convince you then sit on it again and do a redo on the process. Rinse and repeat until you are satisfied with your answer.

 

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WP, its normal to feel

WP, its normal to feel anxiety when making a decision like this.  You've planned and you are ready. Don't think negative thoughts. my nuts have never shrunk from cycle to cycle while I would PCT. I am planning on looking at TRT seriously now as I have seen how AAS use has helped me. Do what you have learned and you will be fine. You have people here that will help.

I'd say the first thing you will notice is irritated nips. when I first started cycling my nips would get sensitive and rub on my shirts and i'd think GYNO... You can do all the research necessary but until you put it into play, That's when the real questions will come.... 

 

Im sending you a friend request. I will help you with any questions you have...

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X2 Friend Request sent.

X2 Friend Request sent.

 

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Strong

Strong, brother... thank you for the reassurance. That is exactly what I needed to hear. I’m all in now, so there’s no turning back as far as I’m concerned. Thank you.

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It’s more than obvious when

It’s more than obvious when you’re about to get gyno. It’s not an overnight thing. Your nipples get sore as fuck and even enlarge a little. It doesn’t just pop up out of nowhere, esp cially at reasonable doses. Worst case scenario, your levels Get all fucked up (which they shouldn’t if you have a good ai) it’s relatively easy to get rid of if you catch it early. Point being, don’t let that stop you, that’s down the list of issues you’re LIKELY to run into on this cycle. Just be open and honest with us if you start having any issues, even if it just doesnt feel right. let this cycle help teach you to be in tune with your body anabolically. You’d be suprised how much it can tell you In this game. For instance, I can tell almost immediately when I start holding water around my eyes and face, that’s usually my first sign that my e2 is raised a tad. Of course we will end up giving you the blood work speech, but that’s your call brother. Get a notebook and keep notes. As you start to get into multiple cycles, you will start to see trends that help you to improve on each cycle. Buckle up man and don’t be scared of the ride. You seem to have a good head on your shoulders and I really haven’t seen anything from you that would lead me to think that you’re In any way not ready. 

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Thank you for the counsel

God you guys really are like family. The feelings of doubt we’re just fleeting... a few seconds,  but I wanted to share them in case someone down the road is a newbie like me, and is feeling the same way. I think it’s important to voice my insecurities and be vulnerable, so other people know that it’s OK to push through. 

I’m all set with arimidex, and there’s no need for the blood work speech. I already did my pre-cycle bloodwork, and I’ll definitely follow up with mid- and post-cycle works.

Should I just post my pre-cycle bloods as a photo?

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There is a separate pic

There is a separate pic section for bloodwork

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Also, I can say with FULL

Also, I can say with FULL confid nice that there’s not a single member here at MG that doesn’t like to see other members come out successful more than just about anything else.. 

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JD,

JD,

You are an outstanding human being and your advice is always rock solid from personal experience!

 

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Post the picture in the 'add

Post the picture in the 'add a picture' section of the forum. Source pictures and discussion is NOT allowed in the open forum.

 

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Of course...

 Thank you so much. I‘m realizing that I need to be a lot more careful when it comes to privacy. 

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Just take a pic of the vials.

Just take a pic of the vials. Best not to reveal shipping and packaging methods for security reasons

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Roger.

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Also edit this post and

Also edit your post and remove the delivery method. Above all else... privacy and security is crucial for you and the provider. Illegal drug possession is a crime..... some people are just Breaking The Law.... Not me though. I am natty! ;)

 

 

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Done.

Post has been edited removing any reference to shipping method. Thank you.

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Shakespeare said...

“Our doubts are traitors,

and make us lose the good we might win,

by fearing to attempt.”

 

I deeply appreciate the counsel, SF. But I’ve already made the jump.

 

The first pin was a piece of cake... I watched some YouTube tutorials on intramuscular injections into the glute, and followed the aseptic techniques I’ve read up on. The journey has begun!

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We’ll have you doing pectoral

We’ll have you doing pectoral injections before you know it...

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Pec injections still give me

Pec injections still give me the willies, I do it on an as needed basis. Sticking that now really giant needle (only looks bigger when I stick in my fucking chest) in my chest just feels weird.

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I love them. Totally painless

I love them. Totally painless 

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Gahhhd

Lol  going up the stairs feels like a midget Jackie Chan punched me right in the ass, mid-squat.

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